Somewhere between the *procrastination* and the homework.. and the incessant forwards and the friendships and the calls to each other complaining about CrUsHeS and BF/GF!! Somewhere between the phone calls to old friends and the "I miss you's", the "I love you's" and the "What are we doing tonight's?" And somewhere between all of the
changing and growing... somewhere between the classes and the skipping classes...and the StUdYiNg for teStS...And the PRETENDINGto "StUdY" for TeStS... And the downright NOT StUdYiNg for TeStS... I forgot--I forgot what ScHooL
was all about.
Somewhere between all the appointments, starbuck coffee, and Mc Donald's... paying bills and then not paying bills... Making plans then breaking plans... Appearing, Disappearing, then reappearing... I forgot--I forgot what it was like to cry. I forgot that pretending to be happy doesn't make you happy... And that pretending
to be SmArT doesn't make you smart .. I forgot that you can't just forget the past in fear of the FUTURE... I forgot that you can'tcontrol falling in LoVe.. And that you can'tmake yourself fall in *LoVe* .... I learned that I can LOVE... I learned that it's okayto MEsS UP.... And it's okay to ask for HELP!!!.. And it's okay to feel like crap... I learned it's okayto cOmPLaiN and wHINe to all your friends for a whole day........ I learned that sometimes the things you
want most you just can't have and the things that you look for are right in front of you. I learned that the greatest thing about HiGh ScHOoL and CoLLeGe and the working world it isn't about the parties or the DRiNKiNG or the Hookups ...
It's the *FrIeNdShIpS*, which means taking BR>chances. I learned that sometimes the things we want to forget are the things which we mostneed to talk about... I learned that TIME and LOVE can heal all things... I learned that just when you think
it can't get worse - it does! ... but with the love and support of friends - you survive... I've learned that when you start feeling BaD about L O S I N G touch and about those that you've lost! They too, are feeling the same way....
I learned that letters from friends are the most important things. And that sending cards to your friends makes you feel better! But, basically, I just learned that my friends........ Both old and new..... are the most important people to me in the world AND.......withoutthem, I wouldn'tbe who I am today.....
So this is a THANK YOUto all of my friends... For always being there. And even if we're not on good terms or we have lost touch... I will always have an unconditional love for you.. ~Always and forever ~
hehx .. today .. played 18 with my dad and mum .. luckily we finished before the stupid damn rain . then met deb .. lolx .. dunno if she got caught in it notx .. well .. pam and i gonna play practice round on tuesday .. whee// ..
err .. was walking to taka today .. and i think i met benedict . with new girlfriend le wor ... hehx ..
anyway .. who cares whether he has new girlfriend notx .. still the same .. hehx .. i bought new skirts .. so ke ai k ..
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aaargh .. so cheated .. every since sea games started i wanted to watch the stupid damn water polo .. and when they were going to show singapore today at 10.00 .. i thought it was aty nite .. but no .. its in the morning .. then i was doing homework at that time .. idiot rite ... like at 12 i turn on the tv .. and was watching kid central haha .. i went to check newspaper and it said 10am .. haiz haiz .. bleahx .. so cheated
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waah haha .. die .. got sore throat liao .. so itchy eh my throat .. wanna scratch .. wanna scratch .. whoo . hoho .. didn't know that lalang so farnie de .. haha .. even trix also say wan get his number le .. lolx.. hint hint .. hmm .. rotting at home .. and i so shocked .. max actuallie replied eh .. like so farnie can .. *wanna pinch cheek* hehx .. he so ke ai .. haha .. no lar . but some one else even more ke ai-er .. hehs .. too bad he doesn't know .. lol .. tuesday is junior invitational already . aaah .. scared ..yep .. must try to play well .. and just now go write testimonial for so many people .. and went to play games .. all so lame ,. i concludee i'm bad at games .. always play until halfway then die le .. can go click on the games link to play too !!
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heez .. today .. i didn't make the cut to play for volkswagon open .. but i managed to get debbie and peibei and her friend to go to the farewell dinner with me to eat the food .. and guess what cassandra .. feldman and his dad and some other guy sat at MY TABLE .. jealous not .. heez .. well .. he was like eat very little you know .. so cute .. and when they announced his name to collect prize .. he said fedman tan .. and not feldman tan .. farnie ok .. hahax .. well .. it was kinda fun .. me and peibei were like mad // ok actuallie only ME but i kept laughing .. and i wore my green and yellow top with my whote and pink roxy pants .. with my sis's big big orange jacket and my new converse shoes and my red christmas hat with the moving lights .. this dumb girl ah .. kept saying me AA .. so irritating know .. hmmph .. after the whole prize presentation .. these thai guys suddenly like came up to me and asked me to talk pictutre with them .. like huh ?? so dotx rite .. and then ask for me and deb's email add .. wanna add us on msn and chat u know .. so cute .. imagine the thai guys chjatting with us on msn .. whoo .. then they wanna see our score .. which was really bad . and i think they kinda regretted making frenz with us i think.. yeah .. then we were chatting chatting .. and then have more people wanna take photo with me .. hehx .. have one yandao one eh .. lolx .. then he quite tall .. and i was like tiptoeing .. heez .. and he kept saying i didn't have to .. some more he put his hand on my shoulder eh .. mean rite .. purposely trying to touch me ah .. hahax .. and they leaving in their bus rite ,.. kept waving to me and some one was blowing kisses .. OMG .. hey .. had one guy even approached claudine to get her to intro me to him eh .. like .. dotx .. but they very brave lar i should say .. hehx
well .. i think max very super eh .. he came in like 4th in our division .. some more he's like online everyday .. although i don't see him .. and he so adorable .. wanna pinch his cheek .. hahx ///
then just now he go collect prize .. was like one head taller then the woman giving out the prize .. funny ok .. i kept laughing .. then that uncle jerry look at me like as though i mad or what .. dunno that uncle j ah .. like see me keep smiling eh .. tsk .. maybe wan employ me as his maid or something .. haha .. hmmm .. he seems tro think my golf is very good .. well .. it WAs but thanks to that damn freaking brad. my golf swings' all gone .. and i play like shit .. and i am going to take like another one year to try and play well and conquer steph .. bleahx ...
today played nine holes with deb .. and we ate three eggs .. then went to the range .. and got all wet .. imagine getting drenched at the range .. haha .. then went back to bathe .. and i forgot to take my golf shoes . good thing deb called .. so jiejie had to turn round to get them back again .. haha ..
sure has been an eventful day .. heez .. and i think pamela yeo is so cute !! her hair is so so so so adorable !!
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muah haha .. today played volkswagon open .. so fun ... yeah and made lotsa new frenz .. hahz .. have one guy play in my flight still saw i chio wor .. ok .. maybe indirectly .. but he said all cedarians are meinu.. haha . yepz .. but never like get phone number or anything ehs .. gaga .. then made a new friend pibi today .. that how THAT CRYSTAL said her name was spelt.. seems she's best frenz with liqing .. hehz.. must go ask liqing bout her !! haha .. then she say must tell her what liqing said .. oh well .. hahx // must gp sleep early .. tomorrow have game again .. hah and just now have welcome dinner me and pibi were stuffing ourselves with food and being crazy ... heez .. then dragg was called an indonesian .. farnie!`
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haha .. today .. went to take neoprints withy trix before tuition .. took so many until i not enuff money to pay for our dinner at pasta mania .. lolx .. and we didn't get to do our despo test .. then i told pamela lotsa stuff .. and i've sworn her to secrecy .. not to tell bout ahem??* .. yeah . and that chao ta .. today couldn't see if he kept eyeing aud cos he sat behind me .. yep .. then that jing ming .. lolx .. they say his hair like lalang .. very messy .. hope he didn't hear that .. later he cry ah .. lolx .. then i kept calling peiqi meinu cos saw her ytd at somerset . hoho .. and i was nice to give an old old man directions .. this aud brought this friend to tuition .. bleahz .. sux lo .. ahem .. sorry to say .. but she was funny .. nad they two made so much much much noise .. well .. and chunlei like finally understand a maths ./.. miracle right .. we managed to finish the last few questions without getting one bit confused .. and we kept eating sweets .. lolx ..
smiles .. my list now have like 80 plus frenz .. heppie .. lolx .. eh .. very long nev er go irc eh .. my com the nouse spoil .. i shall download into my sis com and delete it later .. mad .. craziness .. learnt new word from trix today `. who says these social gatherings are not fruitful and that we don't learn anything out of it ,. haha ..
yep and met rachel and haoming [if thats his name] and some other guy .. can't remember his name le .. yeah . was crossing the road at cine. then was walking past walking walking past this FASHION .. then someone suddenly someone shouted my name ,.. yeah .. he was carrying a guitar .. maybe they were going to set up one stall and sing and get people to donate money$$ to them .. haha .. ok .. hope that rachel doesn't go tell somene .. that *ahem *ahem person she saw me .. hrrmph .. i like things this way .. no contact is good .. no trouble caused to me .. i hate things that are troublesome .. yah .. and that stupid dumb dragg dun wanna reply me bout monday .. eat sai ! haha .. yepz .. so full .. making me feel sleepy !
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heez .. beem going to schl practically evryday man . tiring .. aiyoh .. yesterday i saw this guy .. really cute u know .. then he was like smiling smiling smiling .. and then he somemore very kind eh .. i saw him get down at j8 then buy tissue from this old lady lo .. heez .. so sweet right .. aaah .. then saw one guy super duper uper look like jay chou ok .. some more his sair lookk like and tghe color !! wooh ..
yeah .. let me see .. today went to j8 with manpreet and fatima without a h .. and i just found out fati's name does not have a h .. heeaz. see how .. if can get the picture scanned i'll post it .. and my maid thought manpreet was a boy .. haa.. and i saw that guy .. and i still dunno his name .. hmm ... if i see him on saturday again . i shall ask him ... muah haha .. lame ' .. i keep forgetting my sister's laptop doesn't have that squiggly thing/// hrrmph !
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